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I almost gave up. But after contemplating several scenarios of murder/suicide or joint suicide and being yelled at by my husband for even thinking about it, I started thinking about living. Living…is hard. But it’s not impossible. And as I write this, I’m already several days into another 30 day Primal cleanse. I’ve already stumbled once – I’m looking at you, cake pops, but I’m still on track and I’m still pretty comfortable with what I’m doing.

It just got to the point where I realized, if I was going to live, I needed to do it on my terms. My husband doesn’t have a job anymore. I don’t have a job right now. The most stressful season of the year is upon us and it’s only getting closer. But I don’t have to live like this – I may be unemployed, but that doesn’t mean that I have to fill my body with crap and then agonize over upset tummies and aching joints.

The other thing that gave me impetus: Drew over at Fit2Fat2Fit. He’s finally into his Fat 2 Fit stage, and I’m trying to follow along with him and the rest of the Fat2Fit nation. He’s been blogging detailed meal plans and grocery lists and he’s easing back into exercise with stretches and core-strengthening planks. I’m not following along with his eating plan 100%, but I’m taking most of it and making it work for me with a Primal twist. I’ve completely given up sugar and grains, and I’m concentrating on filling my plate with meat and vegetables. I’ve reintroduced the “green monster” into my diet per Drew’s advice to cleanse (subbing whole milk for the almond milk and almond butter for the peanut butter). So far, my system isn’t crazy about all of that spinach, but, other than some bloating, I already feel better. And since I canceled my gym membership back in September, I like following along with his exercises and “easing” back into things with him. And, though I’m not focusing on the scale since I hit my heaviest, I know I’ve already lost some weight.

It’s a little bit every day, but I figure as long I don’t give up – it’s doesn’t matter how long it takes for me to get there.